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It doesn't have to be music, it can be any form of expression: sing, dance, paint, write and above all love. Love your daughter, love your friends. The will love you back. And someday you will find somebody new to love.
Take care
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P.S. The entrails from this toad tell me your future is very bright. I promise.
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Sometimes I think religion is the great sedative. So many bad things can happen to you at random times (say, a random car or some genetic disease hit you, or, worse, someone you love) that sometimes it can drive me crazy. I know logically such things have very low occurrence, but really what's stopping me from being nuts is that I believe some sort of higher being won't allow it. When it does happen anyway, I can say I believe in His plans. It's sort of crazy, me being like very logical person and faithful at the same time.
Also there's this thing I read back then... that it's easier to prove if God existed or not. I wasn't sure if that's true, but then our latest awesome pope said evolution is not a bullshit. The crazy thing about this is that everything is connected by Michael Crichton novels... that evolution is not a random thing. Millions of years of evolution at we suddenly popped out of nowhere, with no planet of the apes either. A random evolution would be like throwing random ingredients on a pot and hope something come out of it other than heap of trash. Either someone wrote a super awesome program to living creatures' DNA triggered 30,000 years ago or someone is directly playing with evolution...
Sorry didn't mean to be so preachy, but F:AT is the best place to discuss odd things like this (and also for parenting guidance!)
Best of luck to you Barney. I can't say I know how you feel. I've been through some really bad things that I forgot my faith, so it's kind of awesome that you discover your spirituality.
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Nevertheless JonJacob nailed it when talking about your daughter. I have no bad breakups behind me, but I am the child of an ugly divorce and I firmly believe that keeping your kid out of your (relatively speaking) petty differences is paramount. Yes, things will be different and difficult for all of you, but she'll never stop being your daughter so I sincerely hope you can make it work.
best of luck.
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Big hugs from me anyway man, you're pretty obviously one of the nice guys here (amongst many). As a 'somewhat optimistic agnostic' I find myself moving in the same direction as you and being envious of people with real faith. I have nothing but utter contempt for religion in all its forms, but I feel like the vast majority of that actually has fuck all to do with what's important to people who really have faith in something. And even as a scientist I still find it staggering that educated people can still be so utterly blasé when trying to describe what we are and where we came from and how it all happened in terms like "its just x, y and z". If you stop to think about it for a second, everything is mind boggling to the power of mind boggling. And thats just the bit you can start to try and comprehend. Still, the nihilist in me thinks fuck it, we'll all be grains of sand soon enough so that takes the pressure off from trying to find the right answers for everything
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But here's the rub. One thing I have NEVER heard anyone say that has gone through a divorce (myself included) is:
"OMG, I should never have gotten divorced, what a mistake!"
If it gets to that point, it's done and isn't meant to be anyway- despite what you might feel
As for the religion angle...I am 100% anti-religious, so it's really best that I don't get into any of that here (at least not when it isn't Friday). But I am 100% spiritual. My Gandalf-like advice to you on that front is to find where YOUR spiritual center is, this is a golden opportunity to do so.
When I was going through divorce 15 years ago, I found where I was spiritually centered. Where "God" is, for lack of a better term. I am NOT EVEN going to get into it here because frankly, it's very private and personal. But I will say this. I was with my sister, who is an evangelical religious fanatic, on her farm. She and her husband have a beautiful piece of land with horses, pigs, chickens, goats and just some wonderful environs. I have always kind of antagonized her a little, saying things like "I have more in common with witches than with preachers". But she was asking me to come to her church one day while I was helping her give her horses some hay. I said "No, because we're in the only church that is real right now."
That's something I never would have said when I was married that first time, because I was nihilistic, totally atheist and without a spiritual grounding. Getting out of that relationship is what actually enabled me to find faith and meaning. It was a HORRIBLE time, don't get me wrong, but it was also a BEAUTIFUL time. I got my first tattoo then- the rorschach from Watchmen. Because of a couple of personal, philosophical reasons but also because of what it represented in the book. You can look at it and see a dog with its head split open, as Rorschach does, or you can look at it and see a butterfly. It's your decision. People ask me all the time what it is, I just say it's an inkblot.
Best to you, man...take care of that little girl, that's job #1.
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"OMG, I should never have gotten divorced, what a mistake!" - that's a CK Louis line, Barnes! But true.
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I love you guys and your words are really heartfelt and help me feel better. I am always in a better place when I read this thread.
For those of you that have been through this, I was hoping to get advice on something that is becoming very problematic for me. For at least a week now, I've been waking up at five in the morning and instead of just falling back asleep as I've normally done, my first thought is of my ex and her new beau. That I'm in a bed alone and she's not. The thoughts then devolve into worse things and I become stressed and can't possibly fall asleep again. It's an awful way to start each day. I've been able to come to terms with most other aspects of this tragedy in my life and can reason my way out of bad thoughts. But this.... I can't seem to calm myself or relax or think my way up and out of that hole.
Is it just time that will heal it and eventually I won't care anymore? Or is there some perspective that I'm missing?
Thanks again guys from the bottom of my heart.
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To be honest with you guys, I constantly think that I fucked up and shouldn't have gotten divorced. Like I moved too fast and should have thought things through. And I constantly wonder if I can go back and fix it. I have a really good life now and I'm generally happy but my guilt of hurting her fucking kills me.
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Black Barney wrote: For those of you that have been through this, I was hoping to get advice on something that is becoming very problematic for me. For at least a week now, I've been waking up at five in the morning and instead of just falling back asleep as I've normally done, my first thought is of my ex and her new beau. That I'm in a bed alone and she's not. The thoughts then devolve into worse things and I become stressed and can't possibly fall asleep again. It's an awful way to start each day. I've been able to come to terms with most other aspects of this tragedy in my life and can reason my way out of bad thoughts. But this.... I can't seem to calm myself or relax or think my way up and out of that hole.
I went through this many years ago, after breaking up with a cheating girlfriend. Friends told me that the best way to begin to move on was to get laid. I tried the bar scene and tried blind dating, but women didn't find my desperation appealing. After a particularly wild bachelor party for a friend, I decided that call girls were the answer. I was making good money at the time and didn't have any responsibilities aside from my job. It helped. Eventually I got to a much happier place in life and started dating normally again, and now I've been in a relationship for over 11 years now.
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